It still haunted me,,(Chapter 7)

 

Today,,,suddenly i remembering him again. Don't know, why does my heart seem still curious about him. Actually, i wanna move on. I want erase the memorize, but it seem so hard sometimes. Maybe because i still wanna meet him again. Bur what for,,???

I don't know where he is right now, what does he work, and maybe he already married. I don't know anything at all about him now. Sometimes i wonder, because of what i still wanna remember it. Or because he is the first person in my life who give me that feeling at that time.

God, i'm confuse. Will i have a chance to meet him again. Just want to answer all my curiousity. Hmmmmm..but at couple years ago, when i have a chance to met him. i wasn't using the time well. Don't know, because i have a little bit guilthy feeling. The last thing i heard from his friend that he really hate me and don't want to see me again.

Am i so bad to you that moment.. You know, im confuse, it so suddden happen. Because i never realized that you have that feeling to me, and it seem that you so sincere to make a friend with me. That always in mind, that is something that i wanna to say to you. I guessed i have debt to explained it to you.

I wonder, do i have that chance. And is it important after all this years. Maybe you already move on with your life. I pray for your happines. Hope there's no hurt feeling for me. And i hope you never remember me that bad. Really...i never mean it.

For you out there, if sometimes you read this. I hope you understand and you pray for my happiness to. We have grow up now. Everything that happen in our past is sweet thing,,and we still can be friend until forever.